healing from a lifetime of heartache

Brian Gardner's story

After 36 years of suffering with heartache, guilt, and shame, and without knowing why I suffered, I sought professional counseling. I discovered I was angry with my Dad. It wasn't actually his fault. It was mine. I had been holding on to my anger, blaming him for leaving me when I was 11 years old. My Dad died when he was 44. He had been my hero and I just stopped growing. I needed his approval for everything, I couldn't even make decisions by myself, I was still waiting for him. I was afraid to grow up.

One day I went to visit his grave. On the bus ride home I felt terrible. There was no reason to go on. I went home, not knowing what to do, and cried my heart out in my room. I was totally lost. So I started thinking of how to kill myself. I had let my Dad down. As I was leaning against a crucifix on the wall, I cried out to the Lord. He came to me. In an instant the Lord lifted 36 years of pain and suffering. I went for a walk and I felt fantastic. He made me feel like a man for the first time in my adult life. Now, my life has completely changed.

Thank you Jesus